NADIAH :)

Friday, September 3, 2010 Friday, September 03, 2010

My world is crushed now . What had happened has made me a little insane . My mind can't think of other things at all.

Were hearts meant to be broken?

" If you were to know the truth , things aren't going to be the same . And I won't ever be in Singapore again "

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After getting to know the truth ,Opy called me without knowing that my heart have already been crushed . I played along to his game , we laughed , we joke . But deep inside me , I am dying . I can't afford to close my eyes the whole night thinking of what's going to happen next . 6 am I got myself together and headed down to his house to meet his sister who dyingly wanting to see me . I pluck up my courage and met her . What I realy wanted to do was get them back together ,save their marriage , and live happily with their kids who is only 2 years old .
I got out of cab getting to know the "sister" I contacted with the whole night is actually his wife . The moment she showed me their wedding photo to confirm that it's really Opy , I laughed acting that I am totally cool with it . But the fact is that , I felt that everything is gone . We went up to his house , every corner of their house is their family photo . I felt horrible. We went to his room to look at his daughter . And the mom just said

"Baby , this is papa new girlfriend"

My heart seem to stop beating . I am not his girlfriend .
We talked things out while waiting for Opy to come home . I told her simply everything , every single tiny weeny detail . She did the same thing as well.Knowing the difference what he did to me and her simply hurts me. I really hope now, he will spent more time with his family .Especially his daughter. I was playing with the daughter of a guy I fell in love . It hurts , hurts damn bad ...
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0930am. He is supposed to be home . Waited and finally he is right at the doorstep. I sat at a corner hoping that he won't see me before he entered the house.

" What are you doing here?"

His expression was priceless.

" Ma , you want to do this right ? you want to do this right? you better don't regret me doing this right in front of her (daughter) "

"We can settle our own problem , just don't drag Nad in "

"And Nad , i tol you wat just now , If you know the truth , i will never step in this house again . Yes Ma! I will never . "

And they tried to talk things out. Since Opy wanted to have it a private talk , I left .

" I am really sorry ,Nad "

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Opy you have been a really nice guy . You advised me , helped me out , but ... It's just fatherly love. Shower those fatherly love to your daughter. She really love you ,so much . She know that you are home by listening to the sound from your bike. I really hope they will try to talk things out .
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I did love you , but , I guess ... we can never be together .