Today supposed to accompany Faez to the hospital but this fella msg me when he is about to be warded in already. Boohoo!

Therefore decided to accompany him in the afternoon. Totally got no idea of the place and went to the center 2 and tried find his ward. Asked the guard and he toldFaez's ward was at the centre 1. And the guard told me that patients in the centre 1 is rather serious. Honestly I got no idea what's wrong with him as he never reallytell me on his condition. I decided not to ask further since he is not comfortable to explain to me. I respect that.

Reached his room,finally get to meet him. One patient in a room. Freaking cool. I did brought my lappy and so we watch Kelakar rabak and Kal Ho Naa Ho together.

The nurse came in few times and i somehow feel that what the guard told me was true. Nevertheless i did not ask him about it. I think he knows what's wrong but hepretend as thought he doesn't know anything on why he was being warded. Pakcik, if there's nothing wrong, why would you have been warded? But its okay.

Left the centre at around 7:45 since visiting hours is till 8pm.Once i stepped out of his room, tears suddenly starts to flow. I got no idea why.I just wana be by hisside. Eventhough he seems okay(physically) , it aches seeing him all alone. I don't know wassup with the emotions.But I just couldnt help it even now when im typingthis post now, tears just wont go away. Fcuk!What the fucking hell wrong with me now!?!!!

I guess I love you too much.


Feel like visiting him tomorrow again. But the thing is that, Im having a match tomorrow plus his parents might pay him a visit too. But what if his parents willbusy? He will be alone then. Boohoo!
Reply me fast!! :(