I feel like a shit now. Well , Im now in NYPGA.hmm. Not yet. SOON! Seriously, I don't know wether anot Im making the right decision. :( Im afraid I will regret my actions. I was pretty shock when Cikgu told me that he had already talk to Coach Hassan that I am joining NYPGA when I already told him that I have not made my mind yet. Without my consent. He promised me that he will wait for my approval today but.. Seriously its hard to leave YW just like that . I worked for 2 years to get the position I had today. Cikgu shouldnt have talked to coach. Ok wait! Not only to coach but Nazreen too. He told me that Coach isn't very supportive of it. But Nazreen do understand.

Its kinda hard seriously. I dare not talk to Coach Hassan now. Which i will SOON. I cant just leave the squad just like that. I have to at least talk to him. FCUK!!I have not made my mind up sia. Why? Why do you have to talk to them without my approval. I was havin the thought to stay on to YW yesterday. But today.. Everything was smashed. I swear I felt like crying when i came to know about this.

Keeper coach told me not to listen to what cikgu has said to me the previous weeks and follow my heart. But now i cant do anything. Its hard :( Everything isnt going smoothly now. I do feel like shit now.I feel like a fcuking bastard!!Sorry.

My decision now is not to play for this coming league. Im supposed to hand in my approval letter tomorrow but I just cant bring myelf. Im sucha BITCH. Never come training then sudenly Im joining other club. Damn!!

Sorry for the emo posts. Im just so freaking unhappy