I came to realise that I don't need a person like you in my life anymore . Not even as a friend cause whats done cant be undone .

So last Thursday half of the team were at OCH for our medical check-up. But that's not what I wana share about . So let's skip this part .

Contraband with Ysn on Saturday . It's been donkey years since I last saw him . But in anyway , the movie was pretty good , I am not a fan of action movies but that show was good indeed .
So we rushed home since that man wanted to catch the Lions game . Headed down to Besty place for the game and stayed over watching The Bachelor Pad . So it was an amazing day .
The following day I am supposed to tag along with him and his colleagues to St. John Island . I was alittle half-hearted heading there causeee , I have never been there and I dunoe , the place doesnt seem right . So ditched them . But I'll for sure tag along the next trip .


Well a Very Happy New Year to you Bitchessss out there !

How I welcome the new year this year was rather hmmmm . How do I say this? -.- Hahah!
So started work at freaking 8.30 in the morning . Yapps and this awesome girl wasn't late that day . It sounds a little weird but yes I wasnt late . And this amazing girl ends work at 5pm but being too awesome I extended work till 8 . K no . I extended again till 9.30 . Thats e max I can go else I would have extended till midnight since the crowd at USS is effing awesomeeeeee\m/ Haah. Not really la , but the atmosphere was really good .

So met buddy for dinner at Coffee Club again! Yes we did have coffee club last year countdown . We headed to rather so many pointless places before settled for Bowling at WC and we only have an hour to play before it closes .
Lane22 is fine with me not till I saw this familiar faces . It's HIDAYAT! My heart beats so fast . I dunoe wether I should be happy but I just hafta ask for a change of lane . Awkward moment much . So thats about it . K bye !





I am not supposed to feel this way . But somehow , I MISS YOU . It's been a year plus since . Wherever you are , have a great year ahead :)








I found myself crying and crying watching videos of soldiers surprising their family members on their homecoming . Just watch some of it , it's really amazing and definitely touches your heart . You can definitely feel how much they missed their loved ones .
Imagine spending years not meeting your family members . It's crazy mann! CRAZY ! And they are doing this for their country , how patriotic is that?



















He may be attached , married or what so ever . But I feel that these people are able to understand me more . Even your closest friend couldn't understand you the way they do .


Boy oh Boy ! Why arent all the Chefs look like him?! Or at least the chefs in USS pretty please . I'll be the most faithful employee if you hire him in USS . Hahaha. He's like omgly sexy . Mickeyyyy! Pleaseee be The Bachelor on season 18 . aaahh~





















Got back from Laos few days back . We spent 10 days . Well in actual fact we are supposed to be back here in Singapore on Day 7 but I guess the team is just too awesome that the hotel and LFF managament decided to sponsor our stay there for another two days . Omg . I seriously have like so many things to talk about this trip .
So Mr Jita sent us off early in the morning . And the U-16 boys coach , I have no idea what his name is , but he's a Japanese Dude :) But in anyway , I was really sad that Dad was nowhere to be found . He wasnt home the entire night:( I was really really dissapointed . But well..

Day One-
Reached airport , transit flight to Laos . We spent like 2 hours there. I would love to be in Thailand for a getaway though .
So reached Laos , the hotel didnt dissapoint me at all , haha . Its a pretty nice hotel . My roomie was Cindy , she's the craziest person in the squad :)
Settled down. Off for training .
And my entire box Oreo got confiscated during the spotchecks . what the frucccck!

Day Two
Limbering . Phone got confiscated due to the game the next day . well it doesnt really afffect much cos there's no freaking wi-fi in the hotel. Annoying max!!

Day Three (Game Day)
We lost but yaa . Nothing much to day actually .

Day Four
PLayed left mid during training . But wtf just training oni , he will never put me on the wings for a real game:/ During dinner sheryl laughed her ass off seeing Ms Tan tripped . It was really funny but her laughter was just hialrious. Was alone in the room when got pranked by Cindy and Kristy.
"Hello! Did you order a huge sausage?" HAHAAHHAHA!




















All the daily trainings , hardcore sprinting .. Just all the crazyyyy drills we had to do during training that at times I felt like dying is all worth it . Kinda thankful that I made it into the squad . Really thankful .

Awayy for AFF tomorrow . Wish the Lioness luck ! :)

Have yet pack the luggage . So many things to do , so litlle time .


We used to be so close . So closeeee, that we almost meet every single day . We used to kick around together , just hanging out with the rest , having the time of our life , laughing our ass off.

As time passed , we appeared as though we do not each other , but at least we did exchanged smiles and all .

I was shocked to death knowing you've left . It happened so fast , I couldnt believe what I saw , all the facebook updates about you . It's crazyyy .

I am just hopinhg the best for your gf .

Rest in peace Khairul Nizam .





Dayat buddy ,
Well ya.. we've made a promise that we will remain as bestfriends , that we will not fall for each other . But I can't seem to keep my promises . Sorry Nyah! :)



And so I hit the big TWO few days back . Thanks for the wishes via FB ,twitter and of course all those text messages










I was on SPF's page , wondering wether anot to click onto the "Apply" button. As much as I wanted to , I doubt I'll be up to it . Damn it .












So seriously , my life kinda suck real bad now . It's been donkey years since I last catch a movie , what more hanging out with buddies . It sucks so bad .

But will definitely have time for family :D We had a day out to ECP last weekend for blading / cycling . Well blading definitely made my day . All of us rented a pair of blade each . The girls did pretty good , but the guys ...... *smacks forehead* HAHA! Later in the day we rented .. I don't what its called . Like tri-shaw kinda thing.. Kecoh giler ^^
I gotta give Zoo and Wild2 Wet a miss today since I am working tomorrow and won't have time to finish all this annoying assignments then :( ergh .

I am tiredddd . Kayy. Since when im not , right? blahhh~

Dear Mum ,
It has been more than a year since you left us . I miss your presence .
Insyaallah , bro and sis getting married this year . You must be happy :) Only if you are still here witnessing their wedding , it's definitely gonna be great . Adik sayang Mak k :))

Till then <3








So I've started to train with the YW again . New bunch of teammates , mostly the u-16 players . Oh wait ! 80% are u-16 players I think . Haha . It's seriously felt different in a nice way . It made you feel damn Auntie uh . Love the team . The younger ones are awesome \m/

We had our medical checkup few days back . The day I began to gel up with the team . And oh ! The doc is cute . K no link -.-

I shouldn't fall for you . I shouldn't . Ahhh~ I don't wana get involve with all this "love" matter anymore . Not for now . I shouldn't . KNN .


Trying to gel up with the new team . It's been fine .

Oh ya . Managed to play for the last game . Though it's for 20mins , im kinda glad . Cos wasn't expecting to play at all . But yaa , of course I felt lost though I managed to get back playing centre-mid position . It's different play from NYP team .


Trying to gel up with the new team . It's been fine .

Oh ya . Managed to play for the last game . Though it's for 20mins , im kinda glad . Cos wasn't expecting to play at all . But yaa , of course I felt lost though I managed to get back playing centre-mid position . It's different play from NYP team .


So I was in the control room waiting for the show to start . As I was looking at the camera booth . Somthing caught my eye . A black figure standing at the corner of the room . However due to the camera position im only able to see half of the figure , waist-down. I freaked out . Who wouldnt? I stared at it long , tryin to guess what it is . And seriously , what happened next was shocking !!!! Not . Its a muslim lady wearing a black jubah . Goodness !!


I really don't know what to do . I just wana say this straight to you fuvking face that you're just a pain in e ass . Really . Seriously learn how to fuvking move on . I know it's tough . But it's fucking possible . Just fuck off . Really .


Cause I love my lifeeeee <3

Universal Studio with cousins and family .
Bali with cousins and family .
Im pretty much excited for the USS trip instead .

Now I don't really feel we can click like we used to . Nothing happened. We just can't .





2011 has been good so far. Well , I can't say much cos it's only January now . Haha.
Giselle called me just now. And she broke a happy news to me. Coach was asking if I am interested to play for again . Hell yeah !! Haha. I am happy mann !! I am !


So dearest Aisyah and Edy bought me my supper/bfast(I don't know) last Friday . They came to my place all the way from Mustafa Centre just to pass me my thosai . How sweeeeet . It was already three in morning , not sure where to head down to , so Edy drove us to WCP to hang out. Ate and Monopoly Deal-ed . After that the three of us chilled in Edy's car to listen him lecture . Seriously what he said does make me guilty. Like wtf am I doing with my life now . After enough of talking the man wana watch some Hindi movies . And we watch using my handphone. HAHA. Super small screen . But whatever , it was relly nice hanging out in the middle of the night not knowing what to do . Bitch rocked my world :D




No new year resolution because I really think that it's pretty stupid . Lose weight lah , study harder lah. Don't "macam paham" cos 99.9999999999% wouldn't do anything about their resolutions anyway . So ya. Stop bullshitting please.

Well , welcomed 2011 with a blast with Bitch . Went to Marina Bay Countdown as it was really a last minute plan . Drank and partied . Wanted to head down to Zirca after the whole MBC but like a lot people like dat . So walked all the way to Somerset and have our hmmm bfast? Haha . It was good .